Post by Julie Berry on Aug 28, 2011 11:54:08 GMT -5
Here is my convo with Jenna today..
Jenna Lewis: (11:21:49 AM) I've got to go work in the garden.... I'm sorry about the vote... I don't know what to do
Pixy Dust: (11:22:51 AM) It's weird because both you and Joel say that Matty isn't in the "finals plan"
Pixy Dust: (11:23:06 AM) It was you, me, jimmy and matty until two nights ago
Pixy Dust: (11:23:25 AM) So everything changed for me, but not for you.. so it's really weird
Pixy Dust: (11:23:31 AM) I revoted Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:24:03 AM) Matty has talked to me once in this game and I don't feel like he has my back at all
Jenna Lewis: (11:24:25 AM) When I realized that Jimmy and Gillian had your back and not mine, I knew I had to figure out how to be safe
Pixy Dust: (11:24:27 AM) For all of Jimmy's flaws, I know he has had my back... Phillip is gone because of him
Pixy Dust: (11:25:00 AM) So, i might be gone this round due to a purple rock
Pixy Dust: (11:25:03 AM) =/
Pixy Dust: (11:25:24 AM) You want me to vote Jimmy, when I dont' feel safe with Matty
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:36 AM) Matty would never vote you
Pixy Dust: (11:25:37 AM) So basically.. you have given me no choice in this vote
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:39 AM) He told me
Pixy Dust: (11:25:45 AM) so you say.. i have no guarantee of that
Pixy Dust: (11:25:50 AM) he's never told me that
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:51 AM) I know
Pixy Dust: (11:25:53 AM) we never talk
Jenna Lewis: (11:26:17 AM) And the first time I ever talked to Jimmy was 2 nights ago
Pixy Dust: (11:26:20 AM) Finding out that you and Joel have been aligned the whole time has made everything change and now i may be gone because of it
Pixy Dust: (11:26:33 AM) Jimmy didn't want you gone. He was "reaction testing Joel"
Pixy Dust: (11:26:41 AM) same as he was "reaction testing ' you
Pixy Dust: (11:26:51 AM) that is how we figured out that you and Joel were together
Pixy Dust: (11:27:17 AM) The plan was still you, me, Jimmy Matty until that night when the shit hit the fan and we found out there was a 5th person
Pixy Dust: (11:28:06 AM) I trusted you, then Jimmy, then Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:28:55 AM) And you, Matty, Jimmy are all safe from the purple rock... Only, Joel, Gillian and I are at risk
Pixy Dust: (11:29:06 AM) So i have a 33% chance of going home because of all of this
Jenna Lewis: (11:29:11 AM) Ugh
Pixy Dust: (11:29:38 AM) If the plan is truly, you, me the vote should be simple
Pixy Dust: (11:29:45 AM) cuz not voting Matty is risking me going jome
Pixy Dust: (11:29:49 AM) home*
Pixy Dust: (11:30:35 AM) I couldn't turn on the person who has helped me stay in this game when the odds were stacked against me. .
Pixy Dust: (11:30:39 AM) That is asking alot
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:02 AM) Right... But why do I have to change my vote? Why can't you? It's like I am being guilted to change so that you are safe... When I reality, if you vote Jimmy, then you are safe....
Pixy Dust: (11:31:12 AM) I went against Joel and risked everything for Sara to be safe
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:28 AM) So I have to change and vote someone out that has my back
Pixy Dust: (11:31:30 AM) If I vote Jimmy, I have betrayed my alliance
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:38 AM) When Jimmy and Gillian don't
Pixy Dust: (11:31:40 AM) That is what you are asking me to do
Pixy Dust: (11:31:45 AM) Dont you see that?
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:49 AM) So then I only have 2 people on my side
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:03 AM) When everyone is on your side
Pixy Dust: (11:32:06 AM) You don't trust me... because Jimmy didn't want you out
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:12 AM) Right, me too
Pixy Dust: (11:32:16 AM) Do what you need to do
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:18 AM) Jimmy hates me
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:32 AM) Made it clear to me in aim
Pixy Dust: (11:32:36 AM) I have stayed true to my alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:32:42 AM) I didnt' backstab anyone
Pixy Dust: (11:32:59 AM) He was angry that you have had a side deal with Joel..
Pixy Dust: (11:33:04 AM) You cannot blame him for that
Pixy Dust: (11:33:15 AM) I am not thrilled about that
Pixy Dust: (11:33:19 AM) because we feel betrayed
Pixy Dust: (11:33:24 AM) at least I do
Pixy Dust: (11:33:30 AM) he can speak for himself
Jenna Lewis: (11:33:33 AM) Right... But if I go against Matty that's going against our alliance too
Pixy Dust: (11:33:50 AM) Yep.. that is the situation you put us in because you wouldn't vote Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:34:29 AM) I couldn
Jenna Lewis: (11:34:32 AM) Jimmy never approached me with Joel... He said Matty from the beginning
Pixy Dust: (11:34:38 AM) couldn't vote Joel because Jimmy owuld have gone home
Pixy Dust: (11:34:52 AM) No, i approached you with Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:34:58 AM) as a solution
Pixy Dust: (11:35:02 AM) and you said no
Pixy Dust: (11:35:04 AM)
Pixy Dust: (11:35:13 AM) so you left me no choice really
Pixy Dust: (11:35:24 AM) Once i found out you all were voting Jimmy
Jenna Lewis: (11:35:25 AM) I just don't u de
Jenna Lewis: (11:35:36 AM) Understand why you won't see my side
Pixy Dust: (11:35:44 AM) I do see your side
Pixy Dust: (11:35:56 AM) You had Joel in a side alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:36:02 AM) secretly
Pixy Dust: (11:36:18 AM) If it truly was you, me, matty and Jimmy... you would have no problem voting out Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:36:27 AM) especially when it was gonna come down to a purple rock
Pixy Dust: (11:36:34 AM) But you said NO way..
Pixy Dust: (11:36:36 AM) not this round
Jenna Lewis: (11:36:44 AM) So you want me to vote out someone that has my back? And leave 2 people to have your back and 1 to have mine!
Pixy Dust: (11:36:46 AM) And that doesn't make sense
Pixy Dust: (11:36:57 AM) That's exactly what you want me to do!
Pixy Dust: (11:37:05 AM) Dont you get that?
Pixy Dust: (11:37:19 AM) You are asking me to do the same thing you dont want to do and I'm supposed to just say, "Ok"
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:22 AM) Well my understanding in purple rock is that everyone would draw except person immune...
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:35 AM) But Carlos said no only in a final 4
Pixy Dust: (11:37:41 AM) the purple rock means either Joel, Myself or Gillian goes home
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:45 AM) Well, you want me to just say OK
Pixy Dust: (11:37:58 AM) you, matty and Jimmy are safe from teh purple rock
Jenna Lewis: (11:38:16 AM) Jimmy sucks and he is really running this game.. And you are not seeing it, but you will
Pixy Dust: (11:38:20 AM) Actually, I didn't want the tie at all
Pixy Dust: (11:38:32 AM) Jimmy has done everything I have asked him to do
Pixy Dust: (11:38:37 AM) He isn't running anything at all
Pixy Dust: (11:38:43 AM) you will see that when confessionals are open
Pixy Dust: (11:38:52 AM) I have used him like a puppet to get us to the end
Jenna Lewis: (11:38:54 AM) And Joel has done everything I have asked him too
Pixy Dust: (11:39:10 AM) BUT YOU DIDNT TELL ME JOEL WAS IN OUR ALLIANCE. HE WAS IN YOUR ALLIANCE
Pixy Dust: (11:39:21 AM) Why dont you see how wrong that is?
Pixy Dust: (11:39:31 AM) You were covering your own back with no disregard for mine
Jenna Lewis: (11:39:55 AM) It just sucks that you took this really personal... Because in all actuality it is just a game... And I want to win and you want to win
Pixy Dust: (11:40:00 AM) Jimmy was part of "our alliance" and i never got a secret person to help me
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:13 AM) But I didnt think I'd meet someone like you
Pixy Dust: (11:40:17 AM) I take it personal because you gave me your word
Pixy Dust: (11:40:24 AM) And i believed you
Pixy Dust: (11:40:26 AM) that was my fault
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:40 AM) And now I ruined it... It seems... I can't vote Matty... I am sorry
Pixy Dust: (11:40:49 AM) I haven't been working outside our alliance at all.. Didn't feel the need to make "sure"
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:50 AM) Just as you can't vote Jimmy
Pixy Dust: (11:40:52 AM) Well
Pixy Dust: (11:40:55 AM) you lied to me
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:55 AM)
Pixy Dust: (11:40:59 AM) and you dont have my back
Pixy Dust: (11:41:10 AM) you have Joel now and Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:41:17 AM) I have onlyl Jimmy
Pixy Dust: (11:41:44 AM) Having Joel in your secret alliance ruined us
Pixy Dust: (11:42:16 AM) I wish I had thought to have a "secret alliance" to cover myself but i actually thought you were sincere
Pixy Dust: (11:42:20 AM) oh well
Pixy Dust: (11:43:04 AM) I didn't push the Joel vote with you because you had given me your word... In hindsight..
Pixy Dust: (11:43:15 AM) This is the problem when you trust someone completely in these games
Pixy Dust: (11:43:19 AM) It blinds you
Pixy Dust: (11:43:39 AM) Jimmy said he thought you had something up your sleeve and i told him, 'No WAY".. she wouldn't do that to me...
Pixy Dust: (11:43:42 AM) blech
Jenna Lewis: (11:46:28 AM) BUT I DON'T HAVE A FINAL 4 DEAL WITH JOEL !! The point to keep him was to ensure us to the final 4... He had your back too...
Jenna Lewis: (11:46:46 AM) I was never going to tell you
Pixy Dust: (11:46:50 AM) We had the final 4 without Joel
Jenna Lewis: (11:47:22 AM) I know. But we needed Joel to get us to the final 4
Pixy Dust: (11:47:24 AM) We had majority without him
Pixy Dust: (11:47:28 AM) No, we did not
Pixy Dust: (11:47:43 AM) Joel would have gone this round, Gillian next
Jenna Lewis: (11:47:46 AM) WHY CAN'T YOU SEE IT!! Gillian was going to vote me AGAIN
Pixy Dust: (11:47:48 AM) Leaving our alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:47:58 AM) I had Gillian convinced to vote Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:48:01 AM) not like it was hard
Pixy Dust: (11:48:18 AM) Then she would have gone the next round
Pixy Dust: (11:48:40 AM) Gillian could have voted you even.. wouldn't have mattered.. you, me, matty voting Joel
Jenna Lewis: (11:48:46 AM) I don't believe Gillian!
Pixy Dust: (11:48:48 AM) is enough to get him out
Jenna Lewis: (11:48:56 AM) Remember, she said that she didn't vote me
Pixy Dust: (11:48:57 AM) Well.. you should have believed me
Pixy Dust: (11:49:09 AM) we had majority
Jenna Lewis: (11:49:09 AM) Then turned around and said she lied and voted me
Pixy Dust: (11:49:24 AM) and now... you have all the people in your pocket and im prolly going home
Pixy Dust: (11:49:32 AM) and even if i dont go home.. i'm in the minority
Jenna Lewis: (11:50:31 AM) Well, think whatever.... But I am just going to send Carlos a PM... I am not a quitter, but this game has made me one. Good luck!
Pixy Dust: (11:51:08 AM) I'm sorry you cannot see things from my perspective.. I never went behind your back
Jenna Lewis: (11:21:49 AM) I've got to go work in the garden.... I'm sorry about the vote... I don't know what to do
Pixy Dust: (11:22:51 AM) It's weird because both you and Joel say that Matty isn't in the "finals plan"
Pixy Dust: (11:23:06 AM) It was you, me, jimmy and matty until two nights ago
Pixy Dust: (11:23:25 AM) So everything changed for me, but not for you.. so it's really weird
Pixy Dust: (11:23:31 AM) I revoted Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:24:03 AM) Matty has talked to me once in this game and I don't feel like he has my back at all
Jenna Lewis: (11:24:25 AM) When I realized that Jimmy and Gillian had your back and not mine, I knew I had to figure out how to be safe
Pixy Dust: (11:24:27 AM) For all of Jimmy's flaws, I know he has had my back... Phillip is gone because of him
Pixy Dust: (11:25:00 AM) So, i might be gone this round due to a purple rock
Pixy Dust: (11:25:03 AM) =/
Pixy Dust: (11:25:24 AM) You want me to vote Jimmy, when I dont' feel safe with Matty
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:36 AM) Matty would never vote you
Pixy Dust: (11:25:37 AM) So basically.. you have given me no choice in this vote
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:39 AM) He told me
Pixy Dust: (11:25:45 AM) so you say.. i have no guarantee of that
Pixy Dust: (11:25:50 AM) he's never told me that
Jenna Lewis: (11:25:51 AM) I know
Pixy Dust: (11:25:53 AM) we never talk
Jenna Lewis: (11:26:17 AM) And the first time I ever talked to Jimmy was 2 nights ago
Pixy Dust: (11:26:20 AM) Finding out that you and Joel have been aligned the whole time has made everything change and now i may be gone because of it
Pixy Dust: (11:26:33 AM) Jimmy didn't want you gone. He was "reaction testing Joel"
Pixy Dust: (11:26:41 AM) same as he was "reaction testing ' you
Pixy Dust: (11:26:51 AM) that is how we figured out that you and Joel were together
Pixy Dust: (11:27:17 AM) The plan was still you, me, Jimmy Matty until that night when the shit hit the fan and we found out there was a 5th person
Pixy Dust: (11:28:06 AM) I trusted you, then Jimmy, then Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:28:55 AM) And you, Matty, Jimmy are all safe from the purple rock... Only, Joel, Gillian and I are at risk
Pixy Dust: (11:29:06 AM) So i have a 33% chance of going home because of all of this
Jenna Lewis: (11:29:11 AM) Ugh
Pixy Dust: (11:29:38 AM) If the plan is truly, you, me the vote should be simple
Pixy Dust: (11:29:45 AM) cuz not voting Matty is risking me going jome
Pixy Dust: (11:29:49 AM) home*
Pixy Dust: (11:30:35 AM) I couldn't turn on the person who has helped me stay in this game when the odds were stacked against me. .
Pixy Dust: (11:30:39 AM) That is asking alot
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:02 AM) Right... But why do I have to change my vote? Why can't you? It's like I am being guilted to change so that you are safe... When I reality, if you vote Jimmy, then you are safe....
Pixy Dust: (11:31:12 AM) I went against Joel and risked everything for Sara to be safe
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:28 AM) So I have to change and vote someone out that has my back
Pixy Dust: (11:31:30 AM) If I vote Jimmy, I have betrayed my alliance
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:38 AM) When Jimmy and Gillian don't
Pixy Dust: (11:31:40 AM) That is what you are asking me to do
Pixy Dust: (11:31:45 AM) Dont you see that?
Jenna Lewis: (11:31:49 AM) So then I only have 2 people on my side
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:03 AM) When everyone is on your side
Pixy Dust: (11:32:06 AM) You don't trust me... because Jimmy didn't want you out
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:12 AM) Right, me too
Pixy Dust: (11:32:16 AM) Do what you need to do
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:18 AM) Jimmy hates me
Jenna Lewis: (11:32:32 AM) Made it clear to me in aim
Pixy Dust: (11:32:36 AM) I have stayed true to my alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:32:42 AM) I didnt' backstab anyone
Pixy Dust: (11:32:59 AM) He was angry that you have had a side deal with Joel..
Pixy Dust: (11:33:04 AM) You cannot blame him for that
Pixy Dust: (11:33:15 AM) I am not thrilled about that
Pixy Dust: (11:33:19 AM) because we feel betrayed
Pixy Dust: (11:33:24 AM) at least I do
Pixy Dust: (11:33:30 AM) he can speak for himself
Jenna Lewis: (11:33:33 AM) Right... But if I go against Matty that's going against our alliance too
Pixy Dust: (11:33:50 AM) Yep.. that is the situation you put us in because you wouldn't vote Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:34:29 AM) I couldn
Jenna Lewis: (11:34:32 AM) Jimmy never approached me with Joel... He said Matty from the beginning
Pixy Dust: (11:34:38 AM) couldn't vote Joel because Jimmy owuld have gone home
Pixy Dust: (11:34:52 AM) No, i approached you with Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:34:58 AM) as a solution
Pixy Dust: (11:35:02 AM) and you said no
Pixy Dust: (11:35:04 AM)
Pixy Dust: (11:35:13 AM) so you left me no choice really
Pixy Dust: (11:35:24 AM) Once i found out you all were voting Jimmy
Jenna Lewis: (11:35:25 AM) I just don't u de
Jenna Lewis: (11:35:36 AM) Understand why you won't see my side
Pixy Dust: (11:35:44 AM) I do see your side
Pixy Dust: (11:35:56 AM) You had Joel in a side alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:36:02 AM) secretly
Pixy Dust: (11:36:18 AM) If it truly was you, me, matty and Jimmy... you would have no problem voting out Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:36:27 AM) especially when it was gonna come down to a purple rock
Pixy Dust: (11:36:34 AM) But you said NO way..
Pixy Dust: (11:36:36 AM) not this round
Jenna Lewis: (11:36:44 AM) So you want me to vote out someone that has my back? And leave 2 people to have your back and 1 to have mine!
Pixy Dust: (11:36:46 AM) And that doesn't make sense
Pixy Dust: (11:36:57 AM) That's exactly what you want me to do!
Pixy Dust: (11:37:05 AM) Dont you get that?
Pixy Dust: (11:37:19 AM) You are asking me to do the same thing you dont want to do and I'm supposed to just say, "Ok"
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:22 AM) Well my understanding in purple rock is that everyone would draw except person immune...
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:35 AM) But Carlos said no only in a final 4
Pixy Dust: (11:37:41 AM) the purple rock means either Joel, Myself or Gillian goes home
Jenna Lewis: (11:37:45 AM) Well, you want me to just say OK
Pixy Dust: (11:37:58 AM) you, matty and Jimmy are safe from teh purple rock
Jenna Lewis: (11:38:16 AM) Jimmy sucks and he is really running this game.. And you are not seeing it, but you will
Pixy Dust: (11:38:20 AM) Actually, I didn't want the tie at all
Pixy Dust: (11:38:32 AM) Jimmy has done everything I have asked him to do
Pixy Dust: (11:38:37 AM) He isn't running anything at all
Pixy Dust: (11:38:43 AM) you will see that when confessionals are open
Pixy Dust: (11:38:52 AM) I have used him like a puppet to get us to the end
Jenna Lewis: (11:38:54 AM) And Joel has done everything I have asked him too
Pixy Dust: (11:39:10 AM) BUT YOU DIDNT TELL ME JOEL WAS IN OUR ALLIANCE. HE WAS IN YOUR ALLIANCE
Pixy Dust: (11:39:21 AM) Why dont you see how wrong that is?
Pixy Dust: (11:39:31 AM) You were covering your own back with no disregard for mine
Jenna Lewis: (11:39:55 AM) It just sucks that you took this really personal... Because in all actuality it is just a game... And I want to win and you want to win
Pixy Dust: (11:40:00 AM) Jimmy was part of "our alliance" and i never got a secret person to help me
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:13 AM) But I didnt think I'd meet someone like you
Pixy Dust: (11:40:17 AM) I take it personal because you gave me your word
Pixy Dust: (11:40:24 AM) And i believed you
Pixy Dust: (11:40:26 AM) that was my fault
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:40 AM) And now I ruined it... It seems... I can't vote Matty... I am sorry
Pixy Dust: (11:40:49 AM) I haven't been working outside our alliance at all.. Didn't feel the need to make "sure"
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:50 AM) Just as you can't vote Jimmy
Pixy Dust: (11:40:52 AM) Well
Pixy Dust: (11:40:55 AM) you lied to me
Jenna Lewis: (11:40:55 AM)
Pixy Dust: (11:40:59 AM) and you dont have my back
Pixy Dust: (11:41:10 AM) you have Joel now and Matty
Pixy Dust: (11:41:17 AM) I have onlyl Jimmy
Pixy Dust: (11:41:44 AM) Having Joel in your secret alliance ruined us
Pixy Dust: (11:42:16 AM) I wish I had thought to have a "secret alliance" to cover myself but i actually thought you were sincere
Pixy Dust: (11:42:20 AM) oh well
Pixy Dust: (11:43:04 AM) I didn't push the Joel vote with you because you had given me your word... In hindsight..
Pixy Dust: (11:43:15 AM) This is the problem when you trust someone completely in these games
Pixy Dust: (11:43:19 AM) It blinds you
Pixy Dust: (11:43:39 AM) Jimmy said he thought you had something up your sleeve and i told him, 'No WAY".. she wouldn't do that to me...
Pixy Dust: (11:43:42 AM) blech
Jenna Lewis: (11:46:28 AM) BUT I DON'T HAVE A FINAL 4 DEAL WITH JOEL !! The point to keep him was to ensure us to the final 4... He had your back too...
Jenna Lewis: (11:46:46 AM) I was never going to tell you
Pixy Dust: (11:46:50 AM) We had the final 4 without Joel
Jenna Lewis: (11:47:22 AM) I know. But we needed Joel to get us to the final 4
Pixy Dust: (11:47:24 AM) We had majority without him
Pixy Dust: (11:47:28 AM) No, we did not
Pixy Dust: (11:47:43 AM) Joel would have gone this round, Gillian next
Jenna Lewis: (11:47:46 AM) WHY CAN'T YOU SEE IT!! Gillian was going to vote me AGAIN
Pixy Dust: (11:47:48 AM) Leaving our alliance
Pixy Dust: (11:47:58 AM) I had Gillian convinced to vote Joel
Pixy Dust: (11:48:01 AM) not like it was hard
Pixy Dust: (11:48:18 AM) Then she would have gone the next round
Pixy Dust: (11:48:40 AM) Gillian could have voted you even.. wouldn't have mattered.. you, me, matty voting Joel
Jenna Lewis: (11:48:46 AM) I don't believe Gillian!
Pixy Dust: (11:48:48 AM) is enough to get him out
Jenna Lewis: (11:48:56 AM) Remember, she said that she didn't vote me
Pixy Dust: (11:48:57 AM) Well.. you should have believed me
Pixy Dust: (11:49:09 AM) we had majority
Jenna Lewis: (11:49:09 AM) Then turned around and said she lied and voted me
Pixy Dust: (11:49:24 AM) and now... you have all the people in your pocket and im prolly going home
Pixy Dust: (11:49:32 AM) and even if i dont go home.. i'm in the minority
Jenna Lewis: (11:50:31 AM) Well, think whatever.... But I am just going to send Carlos a PM... I am not a quitter, but this game has made me one. Good luck!
Pixy Dust: (11:51:08 AM) I'm sorry you cannot see things from my perspective.. I never went behind your back